I am talking to myself. As I lie in bed. Early, early in the morning.
"I am going to just stay put. Here. In bed. Not worry about jumping up. Giving me plenty of time to take my time before I leave for work. I'm just not feeling it. Not right now."
"Usually, you have no problem crawling out of bed when the alarm goes off. At 5am. Especially when Rudy's text comes through. What gives?"
"Not sure. I have been wondering the same thing. Where has my energy gone?"
"Well, something is up. You are just lying here, as if you have all the time in the world."
"I know. Right? But right now I just want to stay here, under the covers."
"Are you really tired? Overexerting yourself?"
"At the moment? Tired? No. Actually I am wide awake. I just don't feel like getting out of bed. Overexerting myself? Nah. Not me. Never."
"Hm. Let's see. You have been overindulging in food. Junk food, to be specific."
"Yeah. I agree. I have also noticed that I have been lacking in the exercise department. I mean, seriously, I have been all about getting out every day. Exercising. Doing some kind of workout. Running. Walking. Going to the gym. Jogging, uphill even, on the treadmill. Climbing the elliptical. Not lately, though. Not sure what's up with that."
"I think one thing triggers the other. In other words, your bad eating habits are draining you, therefore you have no energy to exercise. And, just as bad, your lack of exercise is causing you not to care about what you shove into your mouth. You just need to get back into exercising everyday. The great thing is that exercise naturally helps you to eat much better."
"Yep.I would agree with that assessment. Exercise and more conscientious eating go hand in hand."
"So what happened? Why the lack of exercise when you have been so determined to stick with it. Wasn't it you that said, aside from helping you eat better, you feel so much better when you work out?"
"For sure. Life is what happened. With Rudy not here, I find I need to pick up the slack. Do the things he was doing. Being home when Brad is home, from school. With Rudy around I was able to take my time getting home. Now, I need to get myself back into town to ensure Brad isn't lacking two parents. Therefore, I have been skipping going to the gym on a regular basis."
"Sounds like this conversation has been eye-opening. Seriously, I am feeling skinny already! Having this talk with you. How about you?"
"Strangely, yes! I think I just lost some of those I am so unmotivated pounds. My packed gym bag is waiting patiently for me. Over there. Near the door. See it? Hi gym bag!"
"Uh huh. Rain or shine you will go to the gym. You are going to work out for at least 30 minutes. Brad said he can walk to Grandma's after school. Up the street. Wait there for you. He's not complaining. Wants you to be able to exercise. Feel healthy."
"Ah, what a good kid. That's awesome! I'm feeling pumped!"
"How inspiring is this? Just a conversation with me, yourself, and your energy has bloomed two-fold!"